learn to love

I've got to learn to live my life
Indeed I must learn how to love
I must realize that I'm God's child
That I descended from up above

I must learn to accept the atonement
To give up all this pain in my heart
I can not let my guilt take hold
For I must allow my new start

Others have seen so much destruction
And I know so little despair
Yet they all try to share their affection
And I show such little care

I've got to learn to live my life
Indeed I must learn how to love
I must realize that I'm God's child
That I descended from up above

the vanishing angel

I'm sitting in the rain & I don't know what to do
Together for so many years, life can't go on without you
Baby why'd you leave, you didn't have to go
Why you left so soon, I guess I'll never know

Oh you left without a reason, you left before goodbye
Baby why'd you have to go, why'd you up & die
I guess that wise ol' saying, that only the good die young
Kills me now to think it's true this whisper leaves my tongue

You were my high school sweetheart, always by my side
Now I guess I really see you were an angel in disguise
Cuz in times past, while you were on this earth
You opened up my eyes, and let me see my worth

You really helped me baby, more than any one can know
Because you were my angel sent to help me down below
My angel in disguise was right before my eyes
And now you're gone

the missing piece of a man

Why do you hurt me
How come I care
It's not like I know you
You were never there

How is it you managed
To make my heart cry
Just this bleeding inside
Not a tear in my eye

This scar in my soul
I will never regret
A mark of stupidity
To love someone never met

the hidden halo

They say that angels fly on wings
And wear a golden halo
But since you've been here I've seen no wings
And I never saw that halo
But baby you're my angel

You're my angel when no one's watching
My savior when no one else cares
All the while my wounds you're washing
Stitching all my souls deep tears
Because baby you're my angel

You save my life without even trying
And I don't know how you do it
You brighten my heart when my mind starts crying
You never saw a tear but I guess you always knew it
Baby that's why you're my angel

That halo's around your heart
It's light can be seen in your eyes
And everytime my downfalls start
You're love gives my spirit wings to fly
Thanks for being my angel

a world without weakness

All the demons which I've faught
And the many horrors that I've thought
Somehow you crept right into my mind
Every weakness & fault you seek to find

Although seek very hard you must not
They cover the whole, not one little spot
I wear them proudly for the world to see
Not for prides sake but because they are me

Without our weaknesses we'd all be the same
There would be no blind, no deaf, & no lame
The world would be as dull as a plastic spoon
Or the curve on the face of a new found moon

unallowed suicide

I've thought about it many times
But how could I just end my life
It seems as though I've got it all
And yet inside I feel so small
This is something not talked about
Which makes it hard to work it out
I wish that I could end it now
But this is something I won't allow
I know there must be another way
To deal with this life in which I must stay

someday, somehow

Someday, somehow, I'll never know
Just when I'll let my feelings show
Let people see who I am inside
But once I'm out I can never hide
Once I'm out I can never hide.

Someday, somehow, I'll never know
When to hold on or when to let go
Let people know just how I feel
To give them something no one can steal
Give them something no one can steal.

Someday, somehow, We'll meet again
Then we can start where I didn't begin
And I'll give you a glimpse of what lies within
Someday, somehow.

can you turn

can you turn all my black roses red
can you take all my sorrows away
can you revive this heart that's long been dead
can you make everything be okay

can you turn these dandelions into daisies
can you help me not to be so afraid
can you stop my whole world from being so crazy
can you lift me out of this grave where I've laid

can you turn this cactus into an orchid
can you make my poor spirit fly free
can you find all the secrets I've hid
can you see the truth that lies inside me

can you turn this cactus into an orchid
can you turn these dandelions into daisies
can you turn all my black roses red

at the end of the earth

On the edge of my seat, at the end of the earth
I ask myself, just what was it worth?
Why did you go, oh what did I do?
I don't know how to live my life without you.
One day you're there, the next morning you're gone.
Better figure out quick, baby, how to move on.
Why did you go, oh what did I do?
I don't know how to live my life without you.
How did this happen? can't believe that you're dead.
Is there anything I could've done, something I should've said?
Why did you go, oh what did I do?
I don't know how to live my life without you.
One day you're there, the next morning you're gone.
Better figure out quick, baby, how to move on.

another cheesy stair poem

Just sitting here at the top of the stairs
Nowhere to go since nobody cares
This is my life, sure, welcome to it
But if you've got something to say, well you can just screw it
It's not quite that I want it to be like this
I just can't find something better than this is
My whole world's turned upside down
Heck, even when I feign a smile it looks like a frown
This life is in shambles and I like it that way
Until six feet under in a wooden box I lay
This is my life, sure, welcome to it
But if you've got something to say, well you can just screw it

this isn't how eighteen is supposed to be

Working two jobs and school takes 20 hours a day.
How in the world did it end up this way?
This isn't how eighteen is supposed to be.
With nobody there to watch over me.
Surrounded by thirty thousand or more.
I feel so alone, trapped behind a closed door.
But this door's made of glass so it's worse, you see?
People will stop right in front of me.
Yet, interactions, none can be made.
Not that it's impossible I'm just so afraid.
Afraid of the shame, the hurt, the stares.
Even worse of acceptance, a smile, that someone cares.
How in the world did it end up this way?
This isn't how eighteen is supposed to be.

the bottom of the stairs

Just sitting here at the top of the stairs
No where to go, nobody cares
These steps remind me of my live
2 kids, a husband, and me the "lovely" wife
One step up and two more back
Afraid to move forward, of getting off track
A trophy woman is all I am
Why on earth did I get so attached to this man
The bottom of the steps is looking pretty nice
Would I just sustain injury or would it take my life
There's only one way to find out...

have you taken the chance

Have you taken the chance to show someone you care
Let them know, no matter what, you will always be there
Have you taken the chance to make a good change
To pick up and move or maybe just rearrange
Have you taken the change to shut of the lights
And open the windows on those bright starry nights
Have you taken the change to help someone in need
To open your heart, to do a good deed
Have you taken the chance to just look at the flowers
To ponder and awe at their wonderful powers
Have you taken the chance to shut up and kiss her
To tell her sometime just how much you've missed her
Have you taken the chance to say three little words
Have you taken the chance to make it eternal
Have you taken the chance to take a chance
On romance...
On love....